Well, JC life, who the fuck said it was nice ? I'm just kinda driven by the desire for money to work hard,really hard,but at the same time,I question myself:Where does my intelligence stand ? What is my capacity ?
Tests failed,assignment some failed some passed , never an A. Now,where does the problem lie ? I wished my poor performance was because I didn't pay attention in class,and didn't revise in a right way,instead of my low calibered brain.
GP is really bitchy.What the fuck primer,wasting the fuck out of my time squeezing all my brain juice thinking of something that doesn't help me to improve much.
And by the way,I'm fucking serious about my studies now.Whatever issues on friendship or girls and money just fuck off man.
Good night and TGIF mother fuckers ;)
Lord'Os 12:56 AM
Okay wow.It has been so fucking long since the last time I blogged . Yup 3 years have passed,and I'm in a Junior College re-doing my first year. Time passes so fast. I miss Bartley,the life there,and my friends and classmates who have gone overseas study mostly.
So I've finally moved out of the fucking hell Balestier Students' Hostel . Mixed feelings,happy and sad.Happy that there's no more curfew,people watching me 24 hours,can meet friends anytime I want etc . Still,I miss those days in the hostel and the people at Balestier Road,the shops,chicken rice,supermarket people.. but then,there's always something which you have to sacrifice for a change,may it be a good or bad one.7 years in the hostel,up and downs,indeed full of unforgettable memories.
Honestly speaking,don't really like staying in these HDB flats and things so screwed within the house,eg. microwave fucking dirty,cannot use the stove to cook etc.. but still,gotta adapt.
These 3 years,life's been really tough,and sucks,but thanks to all my friends who are always supporting me.Really, friends who have fun with me together,jio me here and there ,providing a listening ear,accompanying me this and that,I really appreciate that.Thank you very much,I won't forget you in the future when I become successful in my life.
Just to let you guys have a better idea about me.You hardly see me serious.But when I am,I really am.Don't fucking test my patience by disrespecting me.I have zero tolerance to people who don't respect me.No one is perfect,so am I. I guess my use of vulgarities are absolutely excessive , also a fucking dirty minded / horny person (trying to control though), sometimes selfish when coming to money matters,sometimes make use of people. But one thing for sure, I treat the way people treat me.I'm someone who 's fucking particular about friends.I'll fucking compromise everytime when there's misunderstanding /argument.However,sometimes I do get sick of it.This reminds me of something happened 2 months ago.Need not mention,those who're close to me should know.Whether I'm guilty or not,people can see.But well,no point keeping people who don't seem to be interested to interact with me.
Expectation either makes you happy or disappointed.And what I've learnt over these years is that,perhaps just stop fucking having expectation if disappointment is gonna mindfuck me day and night.
One last thing,life's full of up and downs.It is the little little moment of joy,sadness,stress,relief,that adds colours to our lives.Don't compare your life with others,make it a way that you are happy with your current life.This is your life,and I see no point living other people's lives ? Everyone has their own difficulties.Rich and poor,smart and stupid,there's confirm some factors which make your life not easy. You can never compare finish,and you might just die unsatisfied one day.Life's too short for all these.Alright,people,no matter how tough life can be,don't give up,move on Sadness doesn't last forever,for the rain doesn't last eternally (i have not even seen a rain that last 24 hours).Friends and maybe families are always there to support you.
JC 2 friends,it's time to wake up,get the fuck out of your comfort zone,and start mug like there's no tomorrow,A level is so near I'm not the one taking the exam and I can still sense the urgency.Stop giving yourself all kinds of excuses to procrastinate .Losers/failures,are the ones with tons and tons of excuses.
Okay,shall carry on with my never ending tons of work and revision.Cheers people ,life's cool ;) Jia you!
Lord'Os 10:49 PM
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